Throughout a majority of the program here at Delphian, I struggled with integrity and spent a lot of time comparing myself to others. From the first graduate that I saw, I knew that I wanted to be like them, but I didn’t think it would be possible. To me, they seemed so different. It seemed like they had attained this level of perfection that I would never be able to achieve.
I continued to compare myself to others like this in many ways: in sports, in choir, in projects, in my studies. It lessened as I continued through the Delphi Program, but the most change I experienced came on Form 8.
Through the course of Form 8, and through many talks with my supervisor, I learned that I can create knowledge and ideas for myself that I believe to be true, and that it doesn’t matter what others think about it, so long as I think it is right for me. My supervisor really helped me to understand that the Form 8 program was my program and no one else’s, that I had total control of it, and it didn’t matter what anyone else said.
A realization that really helped me to break out of this constant cycle of self-comparison and invalidation happened during a talk with my school head. After talking with her, I realized how much I have changed as an individual and how comparing myself to others doesn’t actually get me anywhere; if anything it drags me away from my goals.
When I look back at where I was four years ago and where I am now, I see that I am that graduate that I always wanted to be but never thought I could achieve. Thank you, Delphian!